I shall begin with an apology,
Sorry; though my absence does not affect your lives in anyway. Still. Sorry for being MIA for quite some time. In both blogging and in all your wonderful life. Some would know the reason why i was gone, some would notice that something's wrong with me, and some are even much more happier when they do not have to worry about me; when im no longer in their lives. And if you already know me well, i do not like to mention names.
I've done a little calculation lately. It seem that the average time that people get to breath is approximately 28,908,000 minutes. Which means i have already lived around 9,198,000 minutes of my life which is around 31.8% of my life. But most of the time people only live 50% of the average, which means i may only have 18.2% of life to live. Furthermore, to me, the teenager's life is the time you can feel most emotion, which is pretty much the time you can truely learn how to feel, and grow to learn those feelings. Conclusion? I have wasted too much time.
Therefore, i would like to remind all my readers; my owh-so-few readers =). To not waste time anymore. If you are happy with the chapter of life you're in now, please do not close that chapter. Because is takes alot to start a new chapter and you only have a 10% chance of starting a new chapter even happier. If you decide to stay in the chapter you're in, do not waste time, and enjoy every moment of it, because with every passing minute you are 0.000002(or more)% closer to death. And if you decide to start a new chapter and wanna be more happier, i wish you good luck. and if you do succeed i salute you. However i do know someone who was able to do so but thats besides the point.
I know it sounds a little hypocritical of me, but it sure makes me feel better to try to help others out. though this blog post wont be able to completely change one's mind, i hope it at least changes even 1% of your perspective. Then maybe i am not completely useless after all. For i think, i dont have anyone i know who has the same point of view as me.
And for those who's checking my blog to see how am i doing and the reason im not exactly sociable before this,
Truth is, im desperate; 20 days ago i thought i would be Just Fine but no, im dying now; im dying of how horrible i feel. i feel insignificant and no longer appreciated. And all of these feelings are eating me up inside. That's why im spilling all this out. So, im sorry if my melancholic feelings are inappropriate for most of you. I just feel a little better now.
Therefore, i promise!!
Playerism will come before the end of this month. =)
That's if theres still people reading my blog =S
ant-clusion : Feel free to remember me.
