My Endless Charade

POTD

2011-07-03T13:05:00.002+08:00

LOL!

Dear Goof

2011-06-25T13:22:00.002+08:00

No denying you're the habit that i can't quit. ♥

It's Been Long Since I Wrote Something

2011-01-29T16:38:00.003+08:00

Music ♪♫

This is not me holding on,
This is not me letting go,
This is me deciding to let things flow.

This is not my love,
This is not my hate,
This is my decision to leave it to fate.

There is no need for apology,
There is no need to forgive,
All there is to need now, is a new perspective.

ant-clusion : decisions, decisions.

Slash

2011-01-29T04:02:00.002+08:00

I feel your comfort in my dreams
Unprotected silent screams
A light beyond your shadow beams
Still I don't know what it means

When seasons change
Memories remain

I hold on because I won't let go
Even though I know there's solitude below
I hold on because I can't let go
And I refuse to let the hands of fate unfold
I hold on

And when the darkness turns to day
I won't let you drift away
Conscience fades and some let go
But I hang on cause I know

When seasons change
Memories remain

I hold on because I won't let go
Even though I know there's solitude below
I hold on because I can't let go
And I refuse to let the hands of fate unfold
I hold on

I hold on because I won't let go
Even though I know there's solitude below
I hold on because I can't let go
I refuse to let the hands of fate unfold
I held on

The Best Kind of Endings

2011-01-22T06:28:00.002+08:00

POTD

2011-01-21T12:50:00.003+08:00

Mistakes

2011-01-16T01:40:00.004+08:00

Random Mood

"There are certain things in life where you know it's a mistake but you don't really know it's a mistake because the only way to really know it is a mistake is to make that mistake and look back and say, "Yup, that was a mistake". So really, the bigger mistake would be to not make the mistake because then you'll go your whole life not really knowing if something is a mistake or not. And damn it, I made no mistakes. I've done all of this: my life, my relationship, my career mistakes-free. Does any of this make sense to you?" -HIMYM

There are so many choices; so many decisions to make in life that you wont know if the choices you make is a mistake or not. Truth is, making the mistake is always the better choice. "If you dont make mistakes, you dont make anything."

ant-clusion : Choose to make the mistake, and satisfy that feeling you can't shake.

POTD

2011-01-16T01:39:00.002+08:00

POTD

2011-01-03T13:43:00.002+08:00

"Sometimes people deserve to have their faith rewarded."

In My Head

2010-12-27T21:06:00.002+08:00

"You know I'm gonna find a way to let you have your way with me. You know I'm gonna find a time to catch your hand and make you stay. I don't care what clothes you wear, it's time to love and I don't care. You know I'm gonna find a way to let you have your way with me."

Christmas Wishlist 2010

2010-12-22T17:58:00.003+08:00

Christmassy =)

Sorry all for i've been away,

I was busy preparing for christmas day.

But now i'm back with my christmas wishlist,

Hoping to clear that present giving mist.

Firstly, I wish for my all my friends to be happy.

And celebrate their christmas cheerfully.

Next, I would love a pair of gloves for gym.

To stay fit and to stay slim.

Then, right under my christmas tree,

I would love to see a brand new PS3.

Though that wish is impossible, But it definitely deserves a trial.

Owh! i would also love a new pair of shoes.

One with colourful pattern like tattoos.

And also a shitload of T-shirts,

Plain old ones with maximum comfort.

Lastly, it's a rather special wish,

Something i would really cherish.

Except for the first request,

You can forget about the rest.

Because more than anything i wished for above,

I wish for you, you alone and your love.

ant-clusion : Merry Christmas =)

Sad Face

2010-12-16T21:05:00.001+08:00

Our Eyes

2010-12-14T16:59:00.002+08:00

You seem so afraid, afraid you’ll regret;
Regret getting closer and connected to me.
And I felt like that too but I’m scared;
Scared you’ll leave while you still feel you can.

So I’ll just wait and see,
So I’ll just wait and see, and see.

Let our eyes say words we’ll leave unspoken,
When we're trying to be careful.
And words can be so confusing,
When we're trying to be careful,
But not too careful.

Fear, it has its place folded in squares,
Squarely tucked in the back pocket of our minds.
And yes, it’s reckless to act but pointless to decide,
Just let your world collide with mine.

Let’s not wait and see.

Let our eyes say words we’ll leave unspoken,
When we're trying to be careful.
And words can be so confusing,
When we're trying to be careful,
But not too careful.

What's the average number of times people feel this way in a lifetime?
Let's not waste more time.

Let our eyes say words we’ll leave unspoken,
When we're trying to be careful.
And words can be so confusing,
When we're trying to be careful,
But not too careful.

-TG

Some Weird Shitz

2010-12-13T06:19:00.003+08:00

Weird =S

So seventeen will be the number of times Apollo runs his course,

and after that i would have to forget, even if it's by force.

ant-clusion : This shitz is not weird... or is it?

POTD

2010-12-13T06:16:00.002+08:00

In my sweetest of dreams i see me and you,

now all i need is for that dream to come true.

Engrish

2010-12-11T02:49:00.005+08:00

Ska-dang! >=/

My english is bad! some good english person please just come into my life and be my best friend or something so i can have better english tooooooooo! i realise how bad my english is when i couldnt even think with proper english in my thoughts....... damn.... someone please help me out =(
(this post is TBE[to be extended])

ant-clusion : The best way to improve your english, is to have banana friends.

In My Head

2010-12-09T20:47:00.001+08:00

"One more month and all i need, is a sign from you that you think of me."

POTD

2010-12-09T20:44:00.001+08:00

Dont waste it.

In My Head

2010-12-07T17:08:00.002+08:00

"I have no armour left. You've stripped it from me. Whatever is left of me - whatever is left of me - whatever I am - I'm yours"

POTD

2010-12-07T03:14:00.002+08:00

20 Days

2010-12-05T16:47:00.003+08:00

Stressed Out Of My Skin =S

"20 days to christmas and all i know, is im not quite ready to let go; of this past year."

time has been passing soooo damnnn freaakiingggg fast that everything is such a blur.

so many things has happened this year i cant begin to explain.

not only time has been passing soooo damnnn freaakiingggg fast; i'm actually at a shortage of time now.

so consider this a real commitment to my endless charade.

coz i know my readers have been at a very very super minimum.

so in this 20 days, i will continue blogging every single day.

and if i still have no readers at all, all i can do is leave this blog to rot.

ant-clusion : Though this year is not the only thing i'm not ready to let go of, i have to learn to.

In My Head

2010-12-01T11:26:00.002+08:00

"Four things that can never be recovered: The stone after it's thrown, the word after it's spoken, the occasion after it's missed, and the time after it's gone."

POTD

2010-11-28T14:35:00.002+08:00

And that's all there is to it.

In My Head

2010-11-28T14:30:00.001+08:00

"我应逼自己離開, 我會逼自己離開."

Totally Randoms

2010-11-22T02:22:00.002+08:00

Mixed ♪

It's a full moon, i can't help myself.

looking at the stuffs on my shelf.

reminiscing of what could've been.

only to feel more emo within.

i love to make things rhyme.

especially when it's to make you mine.

even the most simplest of lines.

is everything my heart defines.

something always brings me back to you.

no matter what i say or do.

you; the problem that's killing me.

you're everything i dont want to be.

however you're all that i've got.

eventhough you're everything im not.

no matter how horrible they are.

they will never wander off far.

i miss you, all of you, every minute of every day.

and these feeling are definitely here to stay.

because my memories are stubborn.

never disappear, never learn.

from the worst memories right down to the best.

including the ones i detest.

the ones who i miss, do show yourself.

because im in a giant hole that i delve.

this is supposed to be some random post.

now im pretty sure i overdosed.

so this is the ant-clusion short and sweet.

and hopefully something i dont have to repeat.

ant-clusion: I need somebody to love, despite what i said above.

Stuck

2010-10-27T02:44:00.002+08:00

???

"I'll be just fine, pretending i'm not. i'm far from lonely, and that's all that i've got."
I'll be just fine pretending, i'm not; i'm far from, lonely and that's all that i've got.

ant-clusion : There's always another way to see it.

Nuff Said

2010-10-04T15:14:00.002+08:00

Happy Ending

2010-10-01T01:17:00.006+08:00

Just Fine =/

I know it has been a while since i typed anything real into this blog. So believe me when i say, the whole of this post will be all from the heart. It's unfortunate, but yes, i am still counting, only this time, im counting for a totally different person but not surprisingly, for the same situation. (This has happened so many times that i can use this as proof that when it comes to realationships, i'm never gonna succeed.) So now im just gonna initiate a new chapter, and when i start a new chapter, i'd need a little time to get back on my feet so i wont be blogging for a while but feel free to give me a hand (whatever readers i have left). Therefore, i'll have to say goodbye to another chapter. But before i do that, let me tell you about the expectations and reality of the story.

Expectations

Ones expectation is the little story that has been going on in their mind; it's the course of the story that will lead them to the ending that'll make them happy. But most of the time, they'll get obsessed with that idea and will try their very best to achieve it. However, this obsession will be their downfall.

Reality

Ones reality is the story that really happens; the story that almost all the time, doesnt match up with the expectation at all. Reality is the story that the expectation doesnt want to meet but will eventually have to because sooner or later, reality will come and punch them in the crotches.

My Expectations

Keep the feeling inside, and wait for the right moment; wait for her to finally be neutral so when i tell her that i like her she will keep an open mind. She will be so touched with my little gesture that she'll keep an open mind for me. (Reality Check 1)

Trial 1; to overcome the friends problem; the problem with the water being too dirty. Maybe, just maybe, if the water is finally clear, then we could be together without a care in the world. (Reality Check 2)

Trial 2; nothing standing in the way but a flummoxed mind. After trying for a perhaps longer period of time, maybe i could be the catalyst for her to change her mind. (Reality Check 3)

My Reality

(Reality Check 1) Failed miserably. The gestures instead of working the way i thought it would, it worked the exact opposite. Feelings were somehow sparked up, but feelings not enough to overcome the pumbling problem.

(Reality Check 2) The problem has been slowly but surely settled. But it's not the water anymore, it's something else.

(Reality Check 3) I couldnt chance it anymore. Hence, i couldnt be that catalyst that i longed to be.

It says up there that i am just fine, but have i ever really been just fine? Before this, when im emo, i'd put emo. But when i was feeling horrible, i'd put just fine. For some reason i cannot fathom, this time, it's different. Because i have never felt so sure before; so sure that all of this is still worthwhile; so sure that there could be so much more. Just not sure how to explain it. It's like the ending of the story sucked, the plot of the story sucked, the climax sucked, but the characters somehow played their parts just... right.

I guess what im trying to say is, though the story of mine didnt go as i hoped, im perfectly fine with it. Because in this chapter of my life, she is my happy ending.

ant-clusion : Farewell for now.

POTD

2010-09-29T14:12:00.000+08:00

HALT!

In My Head

2010-09-21T17:04:00.003+08:00

"I want you to know. With everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul. I'll hold on to this moment you know, 'cause I'd bleed my heart out to show. And I won't let go"

In My Head

2010-09-14T21:20:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, you just have to let the story run its' course; let it write itself. Because no matter how the story turns out, you'll still have one hell of a story.

POTD

2010-09-14T21:17:00.001+08:00

No, I can't

In My Head

2010-09-13T02:15:00.001+08:00

"When you're dreaming with a broken heart, then waking up is the hardest part"

POTD

2010-09-11T21:59:00.002+08:00

On A High

2010-09-10T23:17:00.002+08:00

Hopeful =)

For the first time in my life,

i looked at the clock and i saw 11.11pm,

and the first thing that came into my mind

was you

ant-clusion: now all i need, is for this wish to come true. =)

Crapperroo Partoo

2010-09-10T15:39:00.003+08:00

Ugh =.=

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POTD

2010-09-10T15:26:00.002+08:00

I am too.

100 And Counting

2010-09-05T01:38:00.002+08:00

Emofied =(

I know that the 100th post of a blog should be a prestigious moment,

But for my current situation, it's definately far from being prestigious.

Perhaps we'll meet again for the 200th post,

And maybe then it'll be more prestigious.

ant-clusion : wait for it.

Dream People

2010-08-09T02:56:00.004+08:00

Hopeful =/

Do you know what are dream people? it's very easy to guess actually. They are the dream guy/ dream girl of yours. What are dream guy and dream girl? Well they are the people or perhaps the person who you've seen for the first time and totally fell in a deep crushing state towards them. These people are the rare fews that can take your breath away just by minding their own business. They are the people who you'd wanna see more of after seeing them once and you cant stop thinking about them or how you will react when you actually talk to them etc. Yes, these are the dream people.

For example, i saw this cute mix looking girl in the canteen the few months ago, just by looking at her i've got a huge crush on her. With her adorable little hairband and formal outfit, i couldnt stand but to tell my friend about her. So i didnt approach her or anything hoping that i'll be able to see her again some other time. So i've waited for week hoping that i'll see her again, but i didnt. and my friend then told me that she was my dream girl now. And yes, whenever i refered to her, i'd call her dream girl.

But you see, that's not the main point of the story; that's not the true meaning of this post. Coz after few more weeks, i saw her in the canteen. She was there for such a long time that i really couldnt lose this opportunity at all. As shy as i ever was, i was so reluctant to get to know her. Therefore, my friends dared me to go. As darable as i am, i went over there and actually talked to her. From this point on, i wouldnt call this conversation the most perfect of conversations but it was good, rather flowy in fact. And to top it with a cherry, i got her email address and actually bought her a rose. Happy i was for the whole day, until i went home and actually entered facebook and added her was when i found out that she was taken, taken for a very very long time in fact.

So you see this is not just about the dream people, this is about keeping them only as dream people. Your dream people should remain just a dream because then you wont have your dreams crushed. Yes. And now im hopeful because i really hope to find a girl right now, because i have no crushes AT ALL and i dont like anyone AT ALL right now and if you've been told otherwise, it's all a bunch of CHEAP LIES. Honest to God. But well i do have a dream girl now, but you all should know who she is. She wears braces and she's super adorable.

ant-clusion : jangan perasan lagi yer?

Fuck

2010-08-04T09:39:00.003+08:00

Fucked >=/

Fucking invigorators

Fucking agitators

Fucking pushers

ant-clusion : Fuck You.

Crapperroo

2010-07-25T23:13:00.005+08:00

Urgh =.=

Holycrapihavenoideawhattodoanymoreandiseriouslyneedhelpifyouarehardworkingenoughtoreadthenextfewlinesthenyouareanawesomefriend,andsinceihavenotbloggedforaveryverylongtimeishalltypeoutwhateverthatisonmymindwhateverthatisbotheringmebecauseimustsayihavelostallsourcesofemoing.Seriously.helloeveryonehaveyoueverheardofthetermthewinnertakesitall?yestheydo,theytakeitallthetimehoweverinmycaseiamneverthewinnerbutimneverthelosertooowhichisworseactually.inmycaseasmyfriendwilltellmeigeteverythingatonepointandnothingatanotherguessmylifeisjustnotconstantatall.nextiwouldliketotouchuponaveryoldsubjectyesidopeoplepleasedontsayyoureemowhenpeoplealwaysseeyouhappy,itsnotgoodforhealthyeahhhhhtrustmeitisnt.owhyeahandyouareafuckingbitchyesyouareihateyouargh.yespeopleimassaedeenowandimprettysureill bethiswayforaveryverylongtimemainlybecausefirstlyimnopgsandsecondlygirlsthesedaysarejustsofuckingweirdddddarghowhgawdpleasehelpme.iloverockclimbingnowitsmynewaddictionatleastitcanhelpmereleaseallthisstupidsingledomtensionihaveonmyshouldersyesiloveyoubouldering!andmadmonkeyoffersquiteanumberofcutepeopleinthebeginnersareayeahbutasexpectedtheyllallhavebgsblablabla,youknowwhatyouareyourejustplainmeaniusedtothinkeverythingusaidwastruebutitsnotnowisitguessyoucanttrustanyoneanymorethesedays.soiseriouslywontblameyouifyousuddenlystoppedtrustingmeyesiwouldnotblameyoubecausethatshowtheworldis.hmmm,iguessifyoureadthisfaryoureallywanttoknowhowiamlately,wellimprettysureimterriblethispastfewdaysbutitsperfectlyfinebecausethatshowiamandivefoundoutwhatsmytypeofgirlyesihave.theyaregirlswithboyfriendsyeapitsnotthatidoitonpurposebutitscausewelljustcause.itactuallystartedwhenilikedthisgirlandfoundoutshehasabfandallblablablabutnowhehjustforthefunofitiguess! anywaysimprettysureimdonesupercrappingfornowsobaibai!

Think

2010-07-08T20:34:00.002+08:00

Have you ever thought to yourself,
that you may be with the wrong person?

Funny Story

2010-06-04T23:44:00.002+08:00

Funnie XD

you know just now, when i was entering blogger,

i typed blobber instead of blogger! muahahahhah XD

get it?

Pretty Girls

2010-05-31T19:24:00.005+08:00

Placeboed =S

Dare i say it, but pretty girls have a very tight rope (wonder woman rope) ;) over me. the only difference is, instead of surrendering to justice or cower in fear, they actually give me strength and perseverance. True story =)

You see, whenever i discover a pretty girl, i'll definately be fired up asking around about who that particular girl is. Getting to know their name would be awesome but getting their number would be just wonderful. The reason i use the word discover is because the pretty girls are usually(MOST OF THE TIME) people my friends already know. yes, sad i know.

But the problem is, everytime i have these pretty girl syndrome, the girl is either a very very high maintainance girl, a slut, flying off to another country soon or she already has a bf for a very very very long time. =(

To make matters worse, the perseverence doesnt last long, not long at all. that's why i'd have to find a pretty girl which will stay for a long time, preferably one that is not a liar. owh pretty girl, please stay with me =/

So tell me, what drives YOU to persevere?

ant-clusion : pretty girls they come they go, but a staying pretty girl is a wonder you know. =P

Investment

2010-05-19T01:13:00.003+08:00

Ducked

If you're a business student, you'll probably already know what does this wonderful word really mean. However, you should know that sometime this word can also be used not only for financial purposes but also in your relationships =) and by relationship i dont mean it only for the sweet loving couples which are just so fucking peachy together, i also mean it for friends.

OKAY PEOPLE, lets start with the definition of the word!

Intestment - An asset, item or a person that you have spent time and/or thought on with the hope that it will generate income or appreciate in the future.

Hmmmmm... yes, lets say i know Ms. A. Ms. A is just wonderful, she was friendly, kind, nice and also kinda cute. So i invest in her; spend more time with her in hopes that in the future she'll be a wonderful friend. =D bla bla bla... to cut things short, by investing in a person means u invest your time and emotion for a particular person, so if u invest well, they'll turn out to be a good friend who was totally worth your investment, and if you invest wrongly, it mean u just wasted a whole shitload of your time and emotion. YES, i hope you understand. =)

(T.B.R)

ant-clusion : fucking wrong investments

POTD

2010-05-08T02:28:00.003+08:00

it does =)

Wont Even Start

2010-05-08T02:27:00.001+08:00

I still got a piece of you under my skin
It's always there no matter where I've been

So if I ever see you on the street
I'll pretend that I didn't see
And turn my face
No use in small talk anyways

Because if I look into your eyes
Then I'll have to say goodbye
And thatll break my heart
So I wont even start
I wont even start

I wish you luck
And I wish it true
That's the best
I can do for you

Cuz you'll probably find love
In someone new
I have to let go
Yeah it's hard to do

So if I run into you with your arm by his side
Just know it'll cut me like a knife

So if I ever see you on the street
I'll pretend that I didn't see
And turn my face
No use in small talk anyways

Because if I look into your eyes
Then I'll have to say goodbye
And thatll break my heart
So I wont even start
I wont even start

POTD

2010-04-30T19:36:00.002+08:00

awww

Nothing

2010-04-30T19:21:00.002+08:00

I believe in nothing,

not the end and not the start.

I believe in nothing,

not the earth and not the stars.

I believe in nothing,

not the day and not the dark.

I believe in nothing,

but the beating of our hearts.

I believe in nothing,

100 suns until we part.

I believe in nothing,

not in satan, not in god.

I believe in nothing,

not in peace and not in war.

I believe in nothing,

but the truth of who we are.

-30s

POTD

2010-04-27T17:43:00.004+08:00

Goodbye my almost lover =)

Agape

2010-04-01T11:24:00.003+08:00

Confused =S

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things and endures all things." - 1 Corinthians 13

ant-clusion : We all have lost sight of what love truly is.

Impoverished

2010-03-30T00:06:00.005+08:00

Broke =$

Holy crap!

first of all, im sorry for being AFL (away from life) / MIA lately.

Next, omg im so poor lately i've been taking up all the jobs that have been placed in front of me. so if you all dont mind, if you do have a part time job/ or those one day job thingy do inform me! i will love you for the rest of my life XP.

So, everyone around me has been suffering from poverty too. Some due to their guilty pleasures, some because they're gluttonous, *cough* ME *cough* and some are just plain unlucky. But well, it's not about how poor or how they became poor, but how they overcame this cursed status ><. Some people just vowed not to spend so much or hang out much anymore. Some; if the rumours are right, are just a terrible way to overcome poverty. And some just work their hardest and fill in their extra free time with part time jobs even though they're rather stressed up, these are the ones i'm really really proud of =') you know who you are, i've repeat myself so many times XD.

So people, seriously, dont lock me out, i'm still around =)

ant-clusion : on another note, i hope i dont have to face or think about Poverty anymore.

You

2010-03-27T13:13:00.001+08:00

Don't lock me out

One Last Chance

2010-03-10T23:48:00.001+08:00

In my life I don't mean much to anyone
I've lost my way can't go back anymore
Once I had everything now it's gone
Don't tell me again coz I've heard it all before

Some people say that I'm not worth it
I've made mistakes but nobody's perfect
Guess I'll give it a try

I've got one last chance to get myself together
I can't lose no more time it's now or never and I try to remember who I used to be
I've got one more chance to get myself together

The time has come for me to change again
I can't carry on like this, I will lose my friends - don't say that you have given up on me
Just give me the time and speace to heal my head

I don't wanna be misunderstood
I've got to take this chance and make it into something good

-JM

In My Head

2010-03-08T01:57:00.003+08:00

Peachy =]

"Call me a sinner, call me a saint. Tell me it's over i'll still love you the same"

ant-clusion : Just tell me.

POTD

2010-03-06T02:15:00.002+08:00

POTD

2010-03-05T09:37:00.002+08:00

Waiting for 4, 5 & 6

Chuck, Why Did You Just Do That?

2010-03-03T23:59:00.002+08:00

"Because i love her, and i can't make her happy."

-Ed Westwick, Gossip Girl.

The Boy

2010-03-01T23:27:00.004+08:00

Just Fine =)

Well, it's the 1st of march, with a beautiful full moon in the sky.
Maybe it's a good time to tell stories, a story about a boy.

The boy, he doesnt know where to start,
because he is bad at starting up something by himself.
The boy is bad at starting up something,
because he is not at all independent.
The boy is not independant,

because he has always done what others tells him to.
The boy does what others tells him,
because he has low self-esteem.
The boy has low self-esteem,
because he has so little to brag about himself.
The boy brags,
because it's the only time he can.
The boy insults,
because he can bring others down so he can brag some more.
The boy is childish that way,
because he likes all the attention.
The boy likes all the attention,
because he is afraid he is no longer useful.
The boy is afraid he is no longer useful,
because he doesn't want to feel the same feeling he has when hope abandons him.
The boy doesnt want to feel that,
because he could be in love.
The boy could be in love,
because she is special to him, and he doesnt want a minute away from her.

The story about the boy is supposed to have a plot, setting and climax.

Therefore, the story is not what it should be; a story.

and-clusion : When life gives you lemons, play lemonade tycoon. =)

11:11

2010-03-01T23:11:00.004+08:00

Just Fine =)

It's 11:11 PM,

I wished for you,

but nothing happened.

ant-clusion : I guess the angels have different plans for you and i.

Girl

2010-02-28T19:25:00.000+08:00

Is there anybody going to listen to my story
All about the girl who came to stay?
She's the kind of girl you want so much
It makes you sorry
Still you don't regret a single day.
Ah girl
Girl

POTD

2010-02-27T00:09:00.002+08:00

I would love a love contract tooo! =D

Bull

2010-02-26T23:56:00.002+08:00

I guess you were just a guilty pleasure after all.

I hope you dont turn out to be the person i pray so hard for you not to be.

ant-clusion : ?

Monday Blues

2010-02-22T23:34:00.002+08:00

Blue

Morning,

had the weirdest dream ever,

have no clue why i had it.

bfast,

woke up too late for bfast,

no bfast for me.

went to college,

took a taxi,

friendly chinese guy,

he thought i was malay,

i wouldnt blame him,

RM4.50 for such a short distance,

i told him to keep the change.

1st day back in class,

bore the hell outta me,

so much for being hardworking this sem,

left college.

took another taxi,

this time a cb faced guy,

taxi came up to RM6.50,

for an even shorter distance,

fucking rip offs.

came back,

did the only thing i was good at;

staring at the comp.

OR stalk peoples profile,

okay, lim's here to take me to lunch.

finish lunch.

got SUPER prepared to dish out tension on em weights

i was the only one prepared.

lim couldnt go,

nvm i have 2 more members,

got happy.

arvind couldnt go,

gosh,

why do i sense that i know what's gonna happen nxt,

brother came back uber late,

and said he's too lazy to go.

fuck.

continue doing the things i did best,

got green,

but then,

felt a lil lovey dovey,

un-privatise my blog,

posted up a french LOVE poem.

chatted with eequin and mandy;

so good of them to chat with me,

brought out some ugly past,

hmm, is that why i had that dream?

dont think so..

continue chatting.

hey look a message,

a series of message.

wow, now i see the funny side,

now i know why i had that dream.

turned out to be one of the worst day of my life.

FTWFML.

ant-clusion : how do u know what to think now? you dont.

L'amoureuse

2010-02-22T21:43:00.001+08:00

Elle est debout sur mes paupières
Et ses cheveux sont dans les miens,
Elle a la forme de mes mains,
Elle a la couleur de mes yeux,
Elle s'engloutit dans mon ombre
Comme une pierre sur le ciel.
Elle a toujours les yeux ouverts
Et ne me laisse pas dormir.
Ses rêves en pleine lumière
Font s'évaporer les soleils,
Me font rire, pleurer et rire,
Parler sans avoir rien à dire

Me

2010-02-13T17:42:00.000+08:00

Good For Nothing

Kris Allen

2010-02-09T10:49:00.007+08:00

Blurr =S

Holy crap, they're so crazy over him O.o

Kris Allen biggest fans =)

Another BIG fan. Dude can sing.

Kris Allen, Mic Problem.

Sister drinking too much wine, brother looking too much like a reporter.

Dejavu.

The WAITING room

Camwhoring.

Greenlight =D

The band! and SYLAR!

Kris Allen, Finally

Kris Allen again... *yawn*

Got bored, took pic with JJ instead =D

ant-clusion : when they say it's VIP, don't jump into conclusions XD

I'm Lunar Powered Emo

2010-02-05T20:35:00.004+08:00

Emo =(

↓

Now that my TKD classes are over,

I have no place to scream my lungs out any longer.

AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

nope, doesnt work.

ant-clusion : ☻

Addicted!

2010-02-04T12:08:00.003+08:00

OMGROFLMAOHAHAHAHA!

POTW

2010-02-03T19:34:00.003+08:00

A Post About Balls

2010-02-03T18:02:00.005+08:00

Joyful =D

Nope, you read the title wrongly again.

Familiar?

Fernando José Torres Sanz is an awesome striker who plays for the Spanish national football team and Liverpool FC. Scoring a whooping 267 goals in competitive football till this date, he is now the fastest Liverpool player to score half a century of league goals. El Niño.

Yesterday, was the proudest moment of my futsal playing life. I've been told that i play like torres because i: "handle the ball like handling a girl". ☺

And yes, i have to tell everyone because i dont usually get that often.

Now, that being said, i have something to tell all of you.

The best way to know somebody, is to play a game with them; any sports (Something my dad always tells me). This is because sport brings out the best and the worst of someones character, for example how they celebrate when they score only shows how much sense of humour they have; or if they lose, whether they leave shaking hands or just leave not caring about the winners and disappear.

So if u wanna get closer to someone, go kick some balls! or just do any sports. =)

and-clusion : people who don't like doing sports are just lazy XP

Nuff Said

2010-01-20T01:36:00.005+08:00

Pee-Gee-Ass

2010-01-15T17:24:00.004+08:00

Stalker =P

No, just because it says ass doesnt make this post has anything to do with ass.

PGS, i've been using this abbreviation for so long and if u're my close friend and do not know what it means, u aint close enough!

For those who are going "What the eff is PGS?" or "I don't give a shit what PGS is" i'm telling you anyway! PGS stands for Perfect Guy/Gal Syndrome. Yes, no one is perfect, which is why i use the term syndrome. It's only coz they're so close to perfect (as in what do you think is perfect).

The PGS works this way: when i use the word "perfect", whichever guy and/or girl that comes to your mind right away, THAT'S the PGS =)

So people, if suddenly you hear in the background, someone calling u PGS and all, now u'll know what it means! If you wanna compare a PGS to my playerism list, they are the one's at class 5 and above. =)

Owh yah, and look, i'm making you life much easier people. Instead of going: "OMFABCDG, he's so gorgeous, beautiful, attractive, macho, buff, cute, perfect smile, with perfect body, and perfect hair which i would love to have. OMG, I WISH I HAD AN ABBREVIATION TO EXPLAIN HIM WITHOUT TALKING SO MUCH". You can just go: " Wow, he's a PGS" =D

ant-clusion : i'm not a PGS =D

Inspire Me

2010-01-13T16:14:00.002+08:00

A man of words and not of deeds,
is like a garden full of weed;
And when the weeds begin to grow,
it's like a garden full of snow;
And when the snow begin to fall,
it's like a bird upon a wall;
And when the bird away does fly,
is like an eagle in the sky;
And when the sky begins to roar,
it's like a lion at the door;
And when the door begins to crack,
it's like a stick across your back;
And when your back begins to smart,
it's like a penknife in your heart;
And when your heart begins to bleed,
you're dead, and dead, and dead indeed.

POTD

2010-01-08T23:39:00.001+08:00

Certainly Makes You Wonder.

Malaysia Truly Asia

2010-01-08T22:13:00.007+08:00

Disappointed =/

What do we say now? I certainly do not know what to say, mainly because i do not exactly have a flowery volcabulary. So, i shall crap on this post with the best way i know how. =)

Let me tell you what's gonna happen. Malaysians will start to say stuffs like "this country sucks" or "why am i in this country". With this act, many other Malaysians will follow and think the same way as them, and this will be like a plague going all around the country. Then, they will study even harder, and be successful. When they are successful, they will sell every single property they have in this country, and use that money to migrate to any country other than this one because they hate this country. Next, the population of this country will decrease, and the whole thing about Malaysian being inhabited by jungle people; will be true. And the guys who bombed the churches will either choke on a tiger biscuit or get squashed by their own motorcycles.

Don't worry, that's only the worst case scenario =)

On the other hand, i cant believe this kinda stuff can be said:

"We will continue to voice our feelings in protests today because you cannot
stop the outflow of feelings on this issue," Pribumi Perkasa president, Ibrahim Ali,
told AFP.
"I think it may have been because of restricting Muslims from
voicing their anger and fears that the church attacks took place. You must
understand that if Muslims are unhappy, I'm sure there will be no peace in this
country."

We are freaking Malaysians for All~ whoops, i mean God's sake. We thrive on being a multiracial country yet we're fighting over a WORD. This is definately not being religious. I have no idea what to say anymore. I'm scared, because not only were we not able to achieve "wawasan 2020", but instead we are going downhill. Please, "In order to get the boulder to the top of the hill, we have to know why did we want it up there in the first place."

You may think im overreacting; heck, i'll probaly wake up tomorrow and think i was overreacting. But this is what i feel now, and it's pretty much the truth.

ant-clusion : Are you proud to be a Malaysian now?

Two Thousand & Nine

2009-12-30T00:04:00.005+08:00

Disappointed =/

My mood thingy? yes, it says disappointed. yes, i do get disappointed very often and yes, pessimist will always be disappointed. But now that i think about it, there has been nothing for me to be happy about 2009. Even if there are, they are the little things. The little thing which eventually will turn bad for me too.

Dare i try it, but i'll do my very best to remember every single thing that happened just like SATYA did on her blog. and maybe you can understand why the year has been terrible for me.

January- dark month, i had long long hair to yi shan's party. But still, the worst of months i'll ever go through. With a broken heart in one pocket and a heavy heart in another, the days of this month passes excrutiatingly slow. Allowing me to savour ever single heartache moment that i had. No matter how optimisticly i go through this month, i'll eventually get sad again. Happiest moment of this month would be the time where i get to spend time with relatives for new year. The worst moment would be the mistake i made calling her again.

Febuary- Lazy month, to grow very fat and play PES 2009. Playerism was finally up. Still, trying my very best to get over her. Chinese new year was here, and with malacca trip on schedule, it sure took alot off my mind. I was, actually beginning to cool down. Yes, malacca trip with my dearest cousins sure brought much cheer and joy to the table. With ochien and chicken rice at every corner who wouldn't be ryte? Valentines day; a day of lovers, spent with jessica, satya, kelvin who are at that time- single. Most eventful time of the month: got a job! Worst moment of the month? I was a waiter.

March- Productive month. Got a job at Roy Morgan Research which is still a very cool job to do. With racist new zealanders and annonying colleagues make it somewhat challenging. College applications down my throath, and cant seem to make up my mind. Coz seriously, TARC keeps popping up at my face no matter how much i do not want to go to that college! owh yeah, results were out... Let's not talk about results.... But the karaoke session was awesome =)

April- Freaking unproductive month. Did nothing but work. Owh yeah, and in an unpresidented act, i wan humiliated. I hated april, the best part about this month is i get to hang out more often with my two good buddies Huba and Lim.

May- Beginning of the end; TAR College. believe or not, instead of spending orientation in TARC, i ended up in SEGI. and i must say, SEGI is wayy more pleasent to the eyes. 1st month of college didnt really serve me well, had practically no one to talk to. So, i'll always look for huba who was there only for so little while.

June- Relay for life, get to shave off some fats while i was there. Cost my team the victory due to the inability to run like Usain Bolt or Tyson Gay. Met few new people, which is a good thing. Got to know the truth, the truth about her. And finally get to understand that ignorance is the best policy. The beginning of the one week Tyler Lim Sern Liang shopping spree, where we spent one whole freaking week in pavilion to find what we need for Promtay

July- The end of the Tyler Lim Sern Liang shopping spree, where he finally got what he need in Time Square after spending all this time in Pavillion. Promtay is tomorrow and guess what? I broke my freaking mask. So, ryte before Promtay we had to rush to sungai wang to get a replacement mask. Promtay, you could say it's the highlight of my year, with good music, good food, good booze and good company, it is by far the only good thing that happened this year. Owh yea, and i won prom king =D. Started my pursuit for someone, with countless karaoke sessions and expensive dinner i thought to myself: "hey, i think im getting close". I thought wrong.

August- The only good part about this month is my birthday, because i had many of my close friends all together at once. omg, that's it, nothing else happened other thn my birthday... owh wait, yea.. there's 30 hours famine, futsal competition and someone who finally made me feel like im wanted. But as always, the feeling didnt last.

September- Huba's birthday =) + his first ever karaoke session. this is the month where everything was about huba, hung out every single day. Everytime we're free we'll go: "Machaaaaaaaaaa, WHAT YOU DOING Machaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa?!. However, all good thing comes to an end, and all PGS only son indian boys leaves for russia. It was extremely quite when he left, and it still is.

October- Deepavali Valthekhel, the 1st thing that popped into my mind. Had a rather good time camwhoring at Malenis place with all the kawans. Turned up at Satya's place only to find out: NO MORE MUTTON CURRY! Started spending time in UCSI, which is a good thing. The end of Sem1, which is better news. My sister came back (i think it was this month) and at the end of it all, All American Rejects concert =)

November- Desperation mode has reached critical level, the beginning of my thorough search for a girlfriend but as always... fail miserably. This is the month where i blogged the most, never have i blogged so much. With emo poems and emo POTD's, everything was dark and dull. No fun in this month for me =( However, there was Eeleng's birthday, had a rather decent time. And the start of the gather gather together meetings which are not really meetings. hmmm...

December- This is where we're at now, it's all about christmas. Boasting to everyone that my mom can bake awesome cookies and cakes which no one can top, and made everyone jealous coz they aint getting any of the cookies XD. This is the month where im stressed out with all kind of assignments. Stupid TARC with stupid management who cant even give us a week off to celebrate christmas and instead had practical test ryte before christmas. This month passed very very slowly as we had group work everyday. However, when christmas arrived then you realise how fast the time passes. Had christmas open house in MY house, managed to squeeze 61 and a half people into my house. And now, im stuck here writing this blog and thinking about what else i missed this year.

I guess that is all that happened this year, not really productive ryte? So, if i missed out on anything at all, please do remind me so i can reevaluate 2009. For now, this is one of the worst year i had. Owh yah, and i miss school =[.

ant-clusion : it's time to forget about 2009 and move on to 2010.

It's Beginning To Look Alot Like Christmas

2009-12-16T22:54:00.003+08:00

Excited =D

Hello everybodieee!! =D

you must admit it, it IS looking a whole lot like christmas. especially if your mom is an awesome baker and the smell of cookies and cakes circulating around your house every single seconds that it makes you wish: "boy, if only my mom was an awesome baker." XP

Well, i was thinking, since everyone is putting up their christmas wishlist, i would love to present mine too =D, and here it goes:

A PS3

Great friends to be greater XP

Ikea quality hangers

Red box sessions with great friends =D

Liveshow result to be awesome

Food, any food =P

Recorder?

I-phone!! muahahahahah!

Enough money to last me till the end of the YEAR ><

Nightlife =S

Dumbbells!

Haha! that's it, that's my christmas wishlist. But most importantly, is for all of you to have a wonderful christmas, and a happy new year =D cheers.

ant-clusion : get the memo? =P

POTD

2009-12-10T16:43:00.001+08:00

No more jobs for us

Twilight Hypocrite

2009-12-02T00:43:00.005+08:00

Annoyed >=S

Guess what? i watched twilight.

Was it twilight? owh it was new moon.

Or was it twi-light on everything but topless 17 year old males with perfect body who never find the need to put on a decent t-shirt and can never find something to put on when needed to impress useless spineless girls who shouts like a barbaric bitch when sleeping.

Alright, sorry, maybe i was abit to harsh on you die hard fans. But this is MY short interpretation of twilight :

vampires and werewolves = awesome

vampires and werewolves in twilight = stupid big ass dogs and bedazzled robert pattinson

storyline = interesting

characters = undetailed

edward cullen = super skinny snowman

edward cullen in reality? = doesn't exist. remember girls DOESN'T EXIST

isabella something = idiotic whiny playboy

jasper (was it?) = constipated

rosalie = didnt speak at all?

dakota fanning = still too whiny for me (war of the worlds) and too young.

hunters = cool

harry and charlie = very prone to heart attacks

1000000 year old vampire = perfectly fine

1 year older gal = OMG SHE'S OLD!

jacob = taller sharkboy

the entire movie = 1 asian dude

the 1 asian dude = faggot shit

crazy die hard twilight fans = female preteens with no life

people who thinks twilight is stupid = smart

amanda (who hates the guts outta bella for being a backboneless bitch) = intelligent

satya (who thinks bella is NOT an idiotic whiny playboy) = think again!

this website: http://theoatmeal.com/story/twilight = realistic

this website: http://twilightmaniacs.onsugar.com/2921517 = dellusional

im stuck = ><

i would love to catch the third one coz i love vampires and werewolves. But i just hope it wont be as lame and/or stupid as this one.

ant-clusion : anthony = will always be a jocob, only with much less muscles.

In My Time Of Dying

2009-11-30T21:35:00.006+08:00

Melancholic

In my time of dying, no one will mourn,

i will leave no traces, you will all be smiling.

vision's impaired, strength weakened,

thoughts dumbed, reflexes slowed,

hearing's blunt, sleep deficient.

volcabulary deteriorate, judgement diminished.

I may be dying, i don't wanna die.

but no matter what i do, how hard i try.

i'm never enough in my own two eyes.

we bathe just to get dirty again,

we be happy just to be sad eventually,

we eat just to be hungry,

we jump just so we could land,

we grow old so that we could want to feel young again,

we speak just to not be heard,

we befriend just to make enemies,

we trust just to get stabbed in the back,

you fall in love, we fall in love,

just to eventually fail in it and finally understand,

that we dont at all know love;

like an equation that you can never solve.

did i break you? owh wait, you broke me.

or was i already broken in the first place?

i AM deserate for a girlfriend,

desperate to finally understand.

WHERE THE FUCK DO I STAND?!

throw me a freaking bone here, and give me a hand.

please?

present dark, future darker,

blabber blabber blabber blabber,

chicken backside, cow weiner...

if that's how u spell weiner...

i'm stuck,

bye

ant-clusion : fuck this, wtf is ant-clusion to anyone anyways?

POTD

2009-11-30T21:16:00.002+08:00

Feeling like this.

This is shit btw... at least very close to it

Dreamer

2009-11-25T18:23:00.003+08:00

Hopeful =]

Somebody wants you,

Somebody needs you,

Somebody dreams about you every single night.

Somebody can't breathe, without you it's lonely,

Somebody hopes that some day you will see,

Somebody's me.

E.I

ant-clusion : living on a prayer

POTD

2009-11-25T17:49:00.001+08:00

Guess what got stuck in the jam with me today? =D

POTD

2009-11-18T23:53:00.003+08:00

Mystery Man!!

Who's this?

a) me

b) huba

c) arvind

d) tyler

e) UDESH

Results

2009-11-18T23:42:00.003+08:00

Stoned =

Hello people!

The results are in!

And dare i say it, i won by 1 vote!

But if you count the 2 votes for AHMOI, then i lost by 1 vote... ><

However, in reality poh yee will triuph over anyone when it comes to cuteness.

So i'm glad that i only lost by 1 vote!! yeeehawww!!!

ant-clusion : This is the result of ultimate lameness....... ><

In My Head

2009-11-14T23:57:00.004+08:00

Neutral =/

"How do you fight?

When there's nothing worth fighting for?"

ant-clusion : wrong guy.

POTW

2009-11-09T20:59:00.002+08:00

This is a special POTD, it'll last for a week to determine who's the victor. =)

Who's cuter?!

(right)Anthony or (left)Poh Yee[Ah Moi]

=) Please vote there (=

>>>

THANK YOU!

I Still Love Comments

2009-11-09T20:42:00.003+08:00

PEOPLE! =D

PEOPLE!!

I still love comments!

you people are becoming

more and more quiet by the day.

speak!

type!

say something!

if you dont leave a comment,

at least leave something on the cbox!

THANK YOU!

ant-clusion : forget about this part! COMMENT!

POTD

2009-11-08T23:55:00.001+08:00

Everyone's favourite thing in life

Always The Antogonist

2009-11-08T11:51:00.006+08:00

Frustrated >=/

This is bullshit,

So seldom do i start my blog with "This is bullshit", so i just had to try...

This is pure bullshit, i seriously dont know why. Everytime something good happens to me, it's something bad to everyone else and that makes me cry . Everytime im in a good mood, someone will destroy the moment and ruin this mood of mine. Everytime i think im a good person, Everyone will take me as a bad guy. Someone gotta tell me, coz i really dont know why.

I act funny and speak vulgar. Im not trustworthy.

I use one bad word. Im rude.

I dont talk to someone coz i was hurt. Im vain ego and wont go anywhere.

I drive a jeep. I drive recklessly.

I think alot. I talk too much

I wear a tight T. Im fat

I win prom king. I won coz im their friend.

I never been in a relationship. Im not willing to try

Im scared to try. I give up fast

I do not love a person as much as they love me. Im the Wrong Guy.

I fall in love. Im the one who split them up.

No matter what i do. You judge me and come up wth your own conclusions

Maybe my personality is suitable to be a bad guy, that why you will always look for the reasons to make me one. You NEED me to be the bad guy.

ant-clusion : without the antogonist, there will never be the protagonist.

POTD

2009-11-08T00:06:00.000+08:00

Huh?

Ouchie!

2009-11-07T00:05:00.000+08:00

*Sobs* T.T

OUCH!

Not only did i get physically hurt today,

but i also got emotionally hurt!

well... not exactly emotionally

but more to the pride section i guess...

ANYWAYS... POINT IS...

ouch! pain pain pain...

pain pain pain pain pain pain

*dear readers, the only reason im ouch-ing here

is because i've been ouch-ing too much in the house

and it's getting too noisy... ><*

ant-clusion : I need me a boo to kiss my boo-boo =[

POTD

2009-11-06T23:46:00.000+08:00

Yeap,

That's the big screen in town...

POTD

2009-11-05T21:36:00.001+08:00

When it's arabic and has no alcohol,

make sure it's 0(comma)0% alcohol

POTD

2009-11-04T23:53:00.000+08:00

The Toilet;

the best place for vanity

Memories

2009-11-04T00:39:00.000+08:00

Dead =/

Have you ever had this feeling? This feeling when you start thinking from one point, and suddenly it all rushes right into your mind. The sweet times, the embarrassing moments, or all the melancholy memories. So yes, i am having one of those moments, and it definately isnt a pleasing one.

Today, i've been called an "attention seeking fat ass". 4 words from the english volcabulary that is that is totally harmless when is seperated but is a killer blow when someone says it to your face. However, when my thoughts initiated, it flew all the way to somewhere way further and has nothing to do with these 4 words.

I am completely useless...

Not only that, but i actually make everyones life worse. and i have few examples to prove so. My brother is a heavy sleeper, and i am the only one who is able to wake him up. But when he is angry and does not speak to me, he will try his best to wake up to his rambunctious phone alarm because he needs to protect his pride and his ego. Secondly would be my good friend Huba, without me dragging him down all the time, he is much better off. With, his studies, his goals or even the unorthodox; the girls.

You have never felt so useless before, the uselessness that you know even if i were to die, no one will even notice. Therefore, i guess i just have to change this whole perception and mentality of this situation. And if i fail, I bet God will find me a way.

ant-clusion : y'all deserve better, i will be better

On My Mind

2009-11-04T00:06:00.000+08:00

Regret =/

Can anybody find me somebody to love?
Each morning I get up I die a little
Can barely stand on my feet
Take a look in the mirror and cry
Lord what you're doing to me
I have spent all my years in believing you
But I just can't get no relief, Lord!
Somebody, somebody
Can anybody find me somebody to love?

I work hard every day of my life
I work till I ache my bones
At the end I take home my hard earned pay all on my own -
I get down on my knees
And I start to pray
Till the tears run down from my eyes
Lord - somebody - somebody
Can anybody find me - somebody to love?

(He works hard)

Everyday - I try and I try and I try -
But everybody wants to put me down
They say I'm goin' crazy
They say I got a lot of water in my brain
Got no common sense
I got nobody left to believe
Yeah - yeah yeah yeah

Oh Lord
Somebody - somebody
Can anybody find me somebody to love?

Got no feel, I got no rhythm
I just keep losing my beat
I'm ok, I'm alright
Ain't gonna face no defeat
I just gotta get out of this prison cell
Someday I'm gonna be free, Lord!

Find me somebody to love
Can anybody find me somebody to love?

By Queen

ant-clusion : =(

POTD

2009-11-03T21:04:00.001+08:00

the moment when i got addicted to AAR

I Believe You Should Die!

2009-09-13T23:37:00.000+08:00

Frustrated >=S

Since i have not blogged for a very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very long time now, i shall blog about crap...

THINGS I WOULD LIKE TO KILL NOW! :

MEM exam paper

Singlehood

Girls who are not hot but thinks their hot

Guys in porns...

The guy who created DotA

The guy who created FoC

The guy who created TD's

(OMG, i take them back! dont kill them!)

Pretty people

Ancient people

Cats (The stupid mamak store kind... not the cute little kittennsss) ><

Corruption in the world

Bankruptness

The Jonas Brotherssss

Megan Fox and Lady Gaga for being guys

Pikachu (owh wait... I LOVE PIKACHU!)

Competition (why would tyler wanna do that?!)

The lady who hit Louise's grandfather

Fulham...??? (Kuan Yee said that!)

Feelings =(

ant-clusion : If you dont like it, just kill it!!