Memories

Dead =/

Have you ever had this feeling? This feeling when you start thinking from one point, and suddenly it all rushes right into your mind. The sweet times, the embarrassing moments, or all the melancholy memories. So yes, i am having one of those moments, and it definately isnt a pleasing one.

Today, i've been called an "attention seeking fat ass". 4 words from the english volcabulary that is that is totally harmless when is seperated but is a killer blow when someone says it to your face. However, when my thoughts initiated, it flew all the way to somewhere way further and has nothing to do with these 4 words.

I am completely useless...

Not only that, but i actually make everyones life worse. and i have few examples to prove so. My brother is a heavy sleeper, and i am the only one who is able to wake him up. But when he is angry and does not speak to me, he will try his best to wake up to his rambunctious phone alarm because he needs to protect his pride and his ego. Secondly would be my good friend Huba, without me dragging him down all the time, he is much better off. With, his studies, his goals or even the unorthodox; the girls.

You have never felt so useless before, the uselessness that you know even if i were to die, no one will even notice. Therefore, i guess i just have to change this whole perception and mentality of this situation. And if i fail, I bet God will find me a way.

ant-clusion : y'all deserve better, i will be better